Monday, June 26, 2006

Evil Tia

Well aside of my usual drinking cursing and philosophising (I been having a good week really, if I believe the Trisha type programmes I'd say I am probably a manic depressive!!!!) I have got caught up in my sisters website and had to deal with a multiple account control freak on their roleplay forum! I find it hard to get the right mode of detachment/friendliness that is needed in moderators, and faced with this person who has used 5 accounts to manipulate roleplay and tried to push certain people out (me most venemously just cos I rumbled her game!). Well, I never gave up. But My sis owns the site, and she isn't answering my pms that are basically saying 'U HAVE TO STEP IN! THIS PERSON IS GOING TO MANIPULATE EVERYTHING- SHES CLEVER- AND SHE'S USING MY PAST COLLISIONS WITH HER BEFORE I WAS GIVEN ACCESS TO THE BLATENT PROOF!' I aint stoopid, I rumblee her before I had that access, now I have even more proof!
Never mind, a person with that much imagination has got to be a good roleplayer, right!? LOL!

ok, I admit it, I'm drunk, and this is petty beyond belief!!! :) :) :)


All those out there thinking they are shit, ure no more shit than the rest of humankind, take strength from that. Just cos ure aware of it, doesn't make u worse!!!

Thursday, June 22, 2006

Opening paragraph to my latest story

It was as good a place to hide as any. If you really don’t want to be found you don’t conceal yourself in solitary confinement. It’s no use enclosing yourself in a dark corner, where any slight sound or movement can give you away and transform your place of safety into a trap. What good is that? It would be easier to track you down, following a single set of tracks, your heat source shining like a beacon, until you find that you are cornered. Alone. Trapped. What at first seems like a haven can easily become your prison. No, if you want to hide, increase your chances of escaping notice then you must hide among people. Find yourself a herd, the larger the better to hide amongst. Bury yourself deep in the throng where the lions can’t reach you. Add your body heat to a mass of body heat. Hide your identity in the crowd. So on that wet day, when I was persued by the heat of fear, it was a natural instinct to turn into the multimart. Where safer than among the throng of shoppers. A consuming crowd with their attention fixed on individual needs, wants, desires. Their eyes on price tags, adverts, packaging. Their minds on imagining where they could place that bookshelf in their room, on what they would have for dinner, on trying to recall what it was that they needed, cursing themselves for not making a list when they thought they would remember. Nobody there was going to give me a second look. And that suited me perfectly.

Saturday, June 17, 2006

Leonard Cohen

Gus just bought me the most recent Leonard Cohen album my review here

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

Three Perspectives

Playing around with my camera, next thing I need is a scanner, as photographing a picture is far from satisfactory! LOL!
This is a bad photo of one of my pieces, with some slight editing after I took the photo, still very blurred compared to the original though!

Tuesday, June 13, 2006


Well, I picked up a cheap mini camera from tescos, and tried taking a pic. There's no flash, and the cameras tiny, so quality isn't great. Managed to get a close up!(standing right under the light!

Just going to try and post it now!!!

Ooooh look! It worked!

No stopping me now!
(his eye looks a bit weepy doesn't it? Oh well, I'm taking him for his first vet visit on Friday anway! :) )

Thursday, June 08, 2006

new addition

I went to the park with my youngest daughter, Faith, today, and we stopped off at the Green Lane Fisheries to have a look at the animals and stuff on the way back.

There was one little kitten on its own, and it seemed desperate for attention, anyway, its not very sensible of me, but i fell in love with it and he now lives with us.

nice surprise for the other two kids when they get home from school!!! :)

Friday, June 02, 2006

My Secret Life

My Secret Life- Leonard Cohen.

I saw you this morning
You were moving so fast
Can't seem to loosen my grip
On the past.

And I miss you so much.
There's no one in sight.
And we're still making love
In my secret life.

I smile when I'm angry.
I cheat and I lie.
I do what I have to do
To get by.
But I know what is wrong,
And I know what is right.
And I'd die for the truth
In my secret life.

Hold on, hold on my brother.
My sister, hold on tight.
I finally got my orders.
I'll be marching through the night,
Moving 'cross the borders
Of my secret life.

Looked through the paper.
Makes you want to cry
Nobody cares if the people
Live or die
And the dealer wants you thinking
That it's either black or white
Thank God it's not that simple
In my secret life.

I bite my lip.
I buy what I'm told;
From the latest hit,
to the wisdom of old
But I'm always alone
And my heart is like ice.
And it's crowded and cold
In my secret life.

Thursday, June 01, 2006

Been a long time

been a long time
been a long
lonely lonely lonely lonely time!!!

So, what have I been up to? The usual,
drinking most days, trying to look after my kids, watching so much shit on TV cos I feel trapped in the house one way or another.

But, my best mate is visiting this week with her 3 month old son, good to see my mate, strange to see her in role as a mum! Her little boy seems just like my little boy was as a baby, not in looks, but in that he loves breastfeeding SO much he never gives her a break! Oh, and he's gorgeous! lol!

Oh and confession, since I am not happy with my life, and see no easy way out of it that I could take with a clear conscience, I have been watching way too much Big Brother. It's sad, but addictive!